Now I'm thinking! ting!


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I have been thinking lately about what I really wanna do with my life. [hello??] I'm already at the third stage of my college life but I haven't decided anything yet. I feel like an empty shell. I can no longer have a good-night-sleep because of this, for once I even wish to just evaporate and disappear form this uncertain world. I am afraid of what tomorrow might bring. Afraid that if I open my eyes and face the new challenges that life has laid before me, I might mess up.The thing that I hated the most is seeing the disappointed face of my family. Argh! I just can't bear it!

I act tough for the longest of time. Now, I realize that no matter how hard I try, I always end up disappointing myself even more. Not my friends, nor my family can save me from this. It is me! I know I have to do something. To think of something. But, honestly, I don't know WHAT and HOW am I gonna do it. Hooh! Such a major headache! I gained nothing ,but big-pimples on my forehead, from this thought in my mind. Darn!

I just wanna be free!! Free from all the anxiety. Free from all worries. Free from everything. Whaaa! If there could be such world [aside from heaven, of course!] wherein you will not think, not worry, not cry, not sleep. Life could have been very easy and simple. HaHaaaayzz!!









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Can this be love??


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I've tried to tell you 
So many times this feelings of mine 
But it's not that easy 
Letting you know 
How i love you so.....

I can truly relate these lines of Toni Gonzaga's song entitled "We Belong" to my long time and lost crush, everytime I heard it I always remember him.  How I wanted to tell him that he is right, that I truly LIKE him ever since high school. And how I am loosing my mind every time he text me, asking the same question "Do you like me?".God knows how I wanted to tell him about my feelings for him, but, my pride always comes along the way whenever I feel like revealing to him.

For you to fully understand what I am telling you my dear readers, let me give you a brief history of our past. Four years ago, way back in high school I had this MORTAL ENEMY , which later on became my ultimate crush. He was a transferee at that time, so I really don't have an idea who he was or where he came from.

Later, after several days he started mingling with my fellow classmates and soon, he became popular within our class. Me, on the other hand, remained aloof and silent talking only to the people I knew. So, we never really cross each other's path, among all others.

Until one time, during our math class my best friend approached him and asked for his number. He was actually friendly at that time so he gave his number. It was my first time to talked to him, but that was only for a short while because our teacher already entered the room. By the next day we were, again,distant like we didn't know each other. [The rest are our monotonous errands.....not important.]

I don't know how'd it happened but he started bullying me, together with his loyal-servant-and-best-friend. 
 [I will not reveal any name so as to keep their hidden identity.] He started calling me mambabarang [witch]   or Siquijor [it resembles my surname sojor], at first I ignored him thinking that maybe he'll get tired and would leave me alone. But, as time passes by, he became worst than ever and I was really pissed off. 

In return, I called him FETUS, because I can't think of something worthy to describe him. From that day on, when i started to fought him the clash and rivalry between the two of us exploded and no one was able to stop it.  Every hour and minute of the day we kept on fighting, throwing bad words and rolled papers to each other.  

Our classmates started teasing us, predicting that soon, the two of us will end up dating or worst become lovers if we continued. However, that doesn't stop us, we ignored them and kept on fighting, calling each other in our father's names. He called me DIOSDADO [my father] and I also called him JOSE or MANG JOSE [his father]. 

Until such a time that our clash and rivalry was ended. We are moving to another year, another time and another classroom.Never did we become classmates again, until we graduated. No fighting, no bullying, no throwing of rolled papers and bad words,everything was ended, what we had was a memory. A memory that will not be forgotten for the longest of time.

Now, we are living our own lives no longer a child which we are, before. I am happy though, because we both are studying in the same university. I rarely see him, but knowing that he is just around somewhere, I'm contented. 

Up to this moment, while I am writing this post I can't help my self but laugh every time I remembered those childish times I had with him. 

With all the great courage that I have, I took one photo of him from his Facebook account. He he. So,here he is my ULTIMATE and EVERLASTING crush.

He is a varsity player in soccer in our school... Guess who??



To those who know or has an idea who he is...just keep your mouth shut!! Okay?? hahaha

Who says...


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Why are they calling me 'NARCI' (in our publication this word used to describe a person who loves to take his/her own pic)?? I always tell them that I am not! I even insisted, but what can I do? The whole world versus me.?? How will I ever fight against this filthy morons?? 

Speaking of moron...the one I am referring to is no less than my workmate in the pub. He is a he, you know what I mean? I will not give a name, so as not to hurt him badly. But I am not mad at him okay? Its just that I hate being called 'NARCI' I think the word is too much to describe my hobby of taking my own pic. I really felt bad about it. I hope that you stop it okay?? Who ever you are you know that I am relating this to you.

Actually this 'NARCI' thing exploded [explode talaga.haha] when I was awarded as the Most NARCI  staffer of the year [2011]. I was shocked during that time because I'm not the only one who like to take a pic. But the again, majority wins so I just accepted it. In the end, I  ignored it maybe they will forget about the thing and choose another for next year. Okay, that was over.

However, this guy keeps on reminding me of that dreadful time. He became his hobby, every time he see me he doesn't fail to call me 'NARCI' and he will say "Ikaw na pud amung e-vote, tai! shenmae...NARCI rajud..Ikaw na!!" .

See that?? He really doesn't fail to ruin my day. Crazy folk, such a villain in my life. Somehow, I befriended him despite of his teaseful nature. So ironic, right? I really don't despise him because I'm not that kind of person. i just hope that instead of me, he will be crowned as the next NARCI staffer on this year. I will surely laugh and tease him every single day. That time he will be eating his own words..whahahahaha [evil laugh]





These are some of my random pictures..[taken from different time, but same place. Haha]















Now, who says...I'm NARCI??

Today I am...


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Very happy.... I've seen my crushhhhhhhhhhhh...............

Purple is the new color of love♥


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"A Purple Love" 




A heart that represents Purple Love. It symbolizes spiritual love. Love of God and love of man. Purple is always been perfect for me.




The purple angels. They serve as the cupid of two in love persons. Their duty is to select the
 best Purple Couple.