I've tried to tell you
So many times this feelings of mine
But it's not that easy
Letting you know
How i love you so.....
I can truly relate these lines of Toni Gonzaga's song entitled "We Belong" to my long time and lost crush, everytime I heard it I always remember him. How I wanted to tell him that he is right, that I truly LIKE him ever since high school. And how I am loosing my mind every time he text me, asking the same question "Do you like me?".God knows how I wanted to tell him about my feelings for him, but, my pride always comes along the way whenever I feel like revealing to him.
For you to fully understand what I am telling you my dear readers, let me give you a brief history of our past. Four years ago, way back in high school I had this MORTAL ENEMY , which later on became my ultimate crush. He was a transferee at that time, so I really don't have an idea who he was or where he came from.
Later, after several days he started mingling with my fellow classmates and soon, he became popular within our class. Me, on the other hand, remained aloof and silent talking only to the people I knew. So, we never really cross each other's path, among all others.
Until one time, during our math class my best friend approached him and asked for his number. He was actually friendly at that time so he gave his number. It was my first time to talked to him, but that was only for a short while because our teacher already entered the room. By the next day we were, again,distant like we didn't know each other. [The rest are our monotonous errands.....not important.]
I don't know how'd it happened but he started bullying me, together with his loyal-servant-and-best-friend.
[I will not reveal any name so as to keep their hidden identity.] He started calling me mambabarang [witch] or Siquijor [it resembles my surname sojor], at first I ignored him thinking that maybe he'll get tired and would leave me alone. But, as time passes by, he became worst than ever and I was really pissed off.
In return, I called him FETUS, because I can't think of something worthy to describe him. From that day on, when i started to fought him the clash and rivalry between the two of us exploded and no one was able to stop it. Every hour and minute of the day we kept on fighting, throwing bad words and rolled papers to each other.
Our classmates started teasing us, predicting that soon, the two of us will end up dating or worst become lovers if we continued. However, that doesn't stop us, we ignored them and kept on fighting, calling each other in our father's names. He called me DIOSDADO [my father] and I also called him JOSE or MANG JOSE [his father].
Until such a time that our clash and rivalry was ended. We are moving to another year, another time and another classroom.Never did we become classmates again, until we graduated. No fighting, no bullying, no throwing of rolled papers and bad words,everything was ended, what we had was a memory. A memory that will not be forgotten for the longest of time.
Now, we are living our own lives no longer a child which we are, before. I am happy though, because we both are studying in the same university. I rarely see him, but knowing that he is just around somewhere, I'm contented.
Up to this moment, while I am writing this post I can't help my self but laugh every time I remembered those childish times I had with him.
With all the great courage that I have, I took one photo of him from his Facebook account. He he. So,here he is my ULTIMATE and EVERLASTING crush.
.JPG)
